Yesterday

Yesterday was pretty bad lol well parts of it were. i think my stress tolerance yesterday was close to none. I don't care for sarcastic people when i am annoyed already. I feel like my fingers flatter from this sign slamming shut on it :( Then looking at a house didnt go so well. I really wanted to like it. But I just couldn't it was kinda blah and crappy. Too much fixing for me and my gma and really even my gpa cause he's getting a little old plus i'm sure crawling under the house is not something he wants to do when he is home for a few days at a time. I did get to see my baby though. It made my day all the more better. Being away from him hasn't made me the happiest but I try to deal with it. I passed out not long after getting back from visiting my baby. I woke up a little bit ago and decided to blog and watch some stuff on netflix :) currently watching american dad. Im thinking about watching my name is earl but I'm not sure I wana. I liked watching it with my honey lol. Its like good time together lol.

my own place

I feel like I may be getting closer to getting my own place :) I got a response back on one of the jobs I applied to. I'm gonna fill out the application and take it by tomorrow since they're holding interviews Thursday. So hopefully that'll turn into something although I would have to give up the sign waving possibly which isn't much but it is something. It would be nice to find something permanent and full time to get a place. Even though it may be hard I'd like the experience of living in the real world away from caretakers. It would be nice to just be me and my baby...and my bajillion dogs. lol I really only have 3 and we share 1 cause he wont claim the others lol. Sometimes though you realize when listening to people how hard it would be to be out on your own. Or how people don't realize the reality of being out there. Oh i just realized how cool android phones are. My boyfriend got one and if it had a slide out keyboard i would probably try to take it lol. Anyways I am watching country music videos on youtube but about to switch to watching this Kevin Hart comedy special with my boyfriend and his brother and sister in law.

1 week

So it has been a week since surgery. I feel a bunch better lol. The only thing really bugging me still is the belly button incision. Its kinda itchy :p and hurts a little bit too. The first week was not really fun :( . The first day I was very out of it. The second was painful :( and the third I was a super emotional wreck. I couldn't stop crying at all.  The rest of the time was between crazy emotional and painful. Walking around has helped a lot. I'm already back at work and worked on Saturday even. I worked today. I've got Wednesday through Saturday scheduled too. It's nice to be kinda busy now lol. Sitting around the house does not sit well with me. So I had another dream that my dad was still alive... it's weird I can't stop dreaming about him not really being dead. Maybe it's because it still hurts and I miss him so much. It was weird. I have watched all of the paranormal activity movies now and some movie called paranormal entity. It kinda sucks that they were fake but at the same time I'm glad they are. I got so creeped out :( well I am hoping to find permanentish full time employment now that the surgery is over :) My goal for the year : Get my own place with Brandon by the December :) oh and of course find a full time job lol but yea I want a place I think it'd be nice to have a place of our own.

Post-op

So yesterday was not as fun as the day of the surgery. I was very much out of it on Monday. Yesterday I was in a ton of pain. Today I am not as sore :) which is wonderful. I am now looking forward to working on my professional portfolio for graphic design. Hopefully I will find a job with it :), or maybe I can find a job and continue to work on it. I want my own place very badly. Lol not that I mind the places I live, I just like privacy and a feeling of not crowding people or people crowding me. I don't want to feel like my dogs are too much for anyone to handle or they bug people. If it's my neighbors oh well they can suck it honestly because we do not live together and I don't have to talk with them like people I live with lol. Plus I would love a graphic design job on the basis then no one can say my degree was worth nothing and a waste of time.
On another note though.. :( I have been kinda sad. I can't handle stuff. Ever since the day before surgery I have been crying alot. Sometimes I know why and other times I couldn't understand what's going on. I think I am just overwhelmed with life. I think also hearing stories about the way others lives have turned out and things they've done have gotten to me. Why I am so sensitive I will never know. Hopefully writing will help a bit of it. So woo for the blog.