Surgery

So I had my surgery today. It sucks. I hate oxygen masks. I hate being alone and I hate they didn't tell me I could have had a visitor before surgery. It made me really sad. I was crying all yesterday and this morning. I was afraid I would die with all that I have left to live for because I am tired. I am tired of having to miss my dad :( . I am glad my boyfriend was there as much as he could be though and that he is helping me through this. It is kinda painful. I feel retarded sometimes cause of being out of it. I don't feel like writing alot. anyways if anyone reads this then yea thank you.